It's been a week i fast but i feel as if ive already fasted for weeks. Fasting month make me feel lazy to go to school because there is nothin to do during my lunch and break time. This week is my deadline for my assignment and projects... Stressful week i would say... hmm... I juz have to endure this as its only few weeks before school term break..*Cannot wait*hehe..
My Driving test is getting close however i juz feel that as the day getting near my confidence level is getting low. I beginning to see that there is no point taking the test nevertheless I need to motivate myself. It disappoints me because even i pass the test i cannot have the privilege to drive on my own. I feel there is not enough support from my family. They dont have the trust in me, part of me feel like to rebel but after giving it some thoughts, I don't wanna be an insolent child. Due to respect i still can curb this frustration. I already talk things out but its not working, nothing has changed. Should i understand them instead and follow what they say? and if i do, i think I will never grow up and learn things like any other teenage kids. I will never experience things on my own. Will they ever understand how i feel right now? Ive been bottling this feeling for quite sometime. Sometimes i see my friends parent show trust in their kids. I question myself "why can't my parent be like theirs"..haiz..
